Dear Tamara Cline,
This is to inform you that we are downsizing our practice and regretfully you are one of the many patients that we are dismissing. We will give you 2 weeks to find another doctor.....
Oh my God!!! Are you kidding me? Panic, rapid breathing, cold sweats my heart was beating out of my chest. No other Dr was going to take me into there practice. For one I didn't have any health insurance. For two, they may not give me what I want! And I had NO refills left on any of my medication.. What was I gonna do? " Take a step back and breathe just breathe" And if anyone has ever been in the situation with addiction you know how devastating this was. I wasn't to the point where I would go to the street and buy but trust me I was seriously considering it. I had a bright idea! I know what I will call the prescription in to the pharmacy myself. Thinking I do this all the time being a nurse and the medication that I was needed was not a controlled narcotic so it will be fine they will never know! Was I out of my mind? I battled back and forth on this idea. Well the time come where I took my last dose and the bottles were empty....That same panic I felt again in my soul.
So, I called the pharmacy and left message on machine....This is -------------fake name I am calling from --------------practice that just dismissed me and I need Zanaflex 4mg 1 tab qid with no refills....and Ambien 10mg 1 qhs with no refills.........Easy enough then I went to pick it up. I was scared out of my mind...But I got the meds and went home. This was in December... So I thought I know this can't be this easy. So in January, the same scenario. Went picked it up no problem.. I thought I can do this...Well February came and I thought, I better change this up a bit.. So I hit a different pharmacy....same scenario same medication. This time I drove up to the window and told them who I was and I was there to pick up meds.... It was taking along time... Actually sitting here telling this the same feelings are coming back. Like a sick feeling in the pit of my stomach. I looked up in my rearview mirror and blue lights appeared. Oh my gosh they called the police. The officer came up to my window and said..."Can I see your ID"....................
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