Judgment Day........

As I stand before the judge knees shaking and heart pounding with my attorney at my side he hands down the judgment.....He begins to speak, " Is your name Tamara Cline " yes sir " How do you plea" guilty... Then as the DA began reviewing my case out loud and telling everyone in the court room of the crime I had committed, I held my head in shame. It wasn't enough that I was dressed in orange with handcuffs and leg shackles on. But it was okay because I had been forgiven. But I had to pay for my mistakes. I knew I could be facing hard time for this so I just began to pray, Lord, your will be done..... The judge ask the DA, Has she ever been in trouble? He said no. And how long has she served? He said 40 days. Well, here's what we are going to do... The plea bargain is this... 12 months supervised probation, drug counseling and credit for time served. Once the probation is complete all charges will be dropped. I looked at my attorney, Is he serious? The judge ask me, Do you accept the plea? I said yes sir I do.
My attorney told me that day that he has never heard a plea like that. He couldn't believe it either. I told him that God orchestrated this whole thing.
I was beside myself. I was overjoyed but I was scared. I had been in there for 40 days. I was told every step to make. I had built a close relationship with these girls. People are so different in that setting. We are all on the same playing field, no judgment, no I am better that you are innuendos. We are all equal. In the eyes of God this is true also but people on the outside are totally different. How was my family going to react? Could I walk back into my church? Were my friends going to accept me? How was my husband going to treat me because I was a totally different person. Not the person I was when I went in there. I had many mixed feelings and to be honest it would have been easier to stay in there.
As I walked the long hall to freedom it was bittersweet........