I wanted to start off by giving you a little information about myself. I was raised in a Christian home. Both my parents were very involved in church and myself included. I was raised in the type of home that going to church on Sunday morning, Sunday night and Wednesday were no options. It was a small Baptist Church. I also was the pianist at the church from a very young age. My family also had a gospel singing quartet and were very well known in the community. So when I say I was raised in church I mean it was all I knew. I lived a very sheltered life from the outside with protective parents. I was lucky to have had such loving and wonderful parents........All this was shattered when my parents got divorced. Divorced? Why, we had the perfect life. I never heard them argue? What were people going to say? Divorce was no option. Let me say that I was married at 22 by then and had a child at 24. I wanted so much to pattern my marriage after my parents but something was not coming together. I stayed in that verbally abusive marriage for 8 years..because I knew that divorce was not an option. But soon after my parents were separated I to became separated from my husband. I guess this kinda gave me permission to leave him since my dad did the same to my mom. Then I completely got out of church. I was mad at God for letting my happy, content family break apart. So things really got bad.
I quickly went into another marriage that was a rebound thing. Then I really got out into the world because he had never been in church. Well that marriage ended too. I was so frustrated and even more angry at God. I had been in church all my life. Every time the doors were opened. Heck, I even played the piano at church and sang a lot. What gives? I was on a mission for happiness but it was nowhere to be found. I pretty much had a mental breakdown at this point. I was put on so much medication that I could not function. And I was glad cause I didn't have to deal with life.I could no longer care for myself my mom and son were taking care of my basic necessities. Yes I was a RN and I could function as so...but it was very hard. I was out of work a lot. Then I was plagued with migraines. So bad that I could not function any longer. Spent all my time in the hospital because they were so bad. Another reason for Dr to give me medications that made me just want to sleep.
In August 2006 I met my husband now, Robby. I finally saw a ray of sunlight maybe. He was a breath of fresh air. He was in the medical field so we did have a lot in common. I still in my same habits of sleeping a lot cause I just couldn't deal. But for reasons unknown to me at the time, he stuck by me and we were married in 2008. All I can say is God placed Robby in my life for unseen circumstances. Now back to the life changing events that started on December 24, 2011
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