Reborn.......1 year later

March 28,2014 .....

Jeremiah 29:11 NIV......For I know the plans for you, declares the Lord. "plans to prosper you and not harm you, plans to give you hope and a future"

 I have so many different emotions today as I celebrate this day of my life. It is a major milestone. I am happy, sad, grateful, terrified and I could go on. On this date my life was changed forever. And the scary part, my husband  would have been mourning my death, because that's where I was heading but through the grace of God

we are celebrating today. I guess you could say today is my true birthday. Last year on this day I stood in a jail cell hopeless and broken. Thinking that I would not survive another day. Or maybe I was hoping I would not survive another day. I had give up on me but thank God he didn't. His work in my life had just begun. And today as I write these words I look at life differently. I don't take life for granted anymore because I have been given a second chance. God is all about second chances. It's all because of Jesus I am alive. When you have a personal encounter with God you will be changed. I think back on this time last year and think, what would I have done different? And the answer to that is absolutely nothing. Thank goodness I wasn't given the chance to make that decision because I would have messed it up. I used to be the kind of person that something major had to happen to get my attention. Always a little headstrong and my parents can attest to that. I am grateful for the sacrifices that God allowed me to make because almost to the day God allowed me to see why I spent 40 days in my "prayer closet". And one day I will share with you. When it all comes full circle and you can see it's a feeling of amazement when you spend your days saying " Lord, why do I have to climb this mountain?  Why Lord why? And in his sweet still voice he says " Now do you see why?" I know now in this last year, he was preparing me mentally and spiritually to take on this next phase in my life. I could have never accomplished it before. So what would I do different?   Nothing!!! I would do it again if that's what God called me to do. 
This last year my life has changed dramatically. My husband and I are doing great but we have to work everyday. He has taught me to love unconditionally and my desire to serve him has taken on a different meaning. Our Sunday School class, Love's Journey has been such an encouragement to us both and has taught us God's way to a happy marriage. We both are still in the process of healing and it takes time. Baby steps. I still continue to reach out to precious souls incarcerated and I pray for them daily. I try to show them that there is hope in Jesus. God has delivered me from addiction but I am always aware that Satan is the enemy. My prayer is that people can look at me and see the changes in my life. I don't only want to talk the talk. I want to walk the walk. I want people to say, I served God in my generation. I want to leave you with this...... 
Psalm 121 NIV
I lift up my eyes to the mountains
  where does my help come from?
My help comes from the Lord
  the maker of heaven and earth.


He will not let your foot slip
  he who watches over you will not slumber;
indeed ,he who watches over Israel
  will neither slumber nor sleep.


The Lord watches over you
  the Lord is your shade at your right hand;
the sun will not harm you by day
  nor the moon by night.


The Lord will keep you from ALL harm
  he will watch over your life;
the Lord will watch over your comings and going
  both now and forevermore.